How can I forgive myself for all the things that I didn’t become?

How am I suppose to burry the happiest version of myself?

How can I find back my lost hopes?

How can I mourn my own death?

Is there a place for the tombstone of my dreams ?

Would someone pray for all the people walking around as if they were already dead ? Would someone pray for me?  

I feel like a ghost.
And I haunt my own bed since you’re gone.