I’ll just paint a smile on my face, I’ll keep myself busy I’ll play make believe that I’m okay, I’m breaking under the weight, of being not okay! I feel myself fading away.
I feel like I’ve been gone for a long time now, My body is present, but I seem to be lost inside. I used to love feeling everything I ever could. But now I feel like I’m fading away.
It hurts me to say that I am not okay. Letting everyone down hurts me more than they know. It’s been tearing me apart, The fact that I will never be all that they want me to be.
I know that I can’t keep living this way, I know what will come if I do not make a change. I’m buried under the weight of all the shame I’ve brought upon myself And I know there’s no one to blame but me.