there are four steps of thin ice between you and me.
1 it’s okay if you’re unsure. i don’t mind if you’re still trying to understand the rhythm of your heart over the rationality in your mind. i can wait as long as it takes because I also know the complexity of loving someone. i understand the risks and the doubts that come with choosing to love someone.
2 all I want is your happiness and if this thin sheet of ice isn’t enough to hold both of us, i don’t mind falling through if it means keeping you afloat. i would rather sink into the cold, dark than to watch you struggle. i don’t mind letting go and breaking the ice from under me. i want to see you happy even if it means I won’t be the person to reach you.
3 another step forward will be my end. there’s no path for me to walk back. i will wait here, until you’re ready to reach out and close the final step. and even if the ice may break from under me i will wait. i will love you cautiously. and with this distance between us, i will choose again and again to give this heart to you.
i dont know which hurts more: the feeling as i wait or the thought of losing you.