i've always been jealous
of the people who drink
to drown their sorrows
the ones who use chemicals to run away
and i've always wondered
why they never asked me
if i wanted to run with them
because my suffering is great
i really would love nothing more
than to ruin myself
get dizzy... weak... wild
**** the consequences
and i want it so badly it hurts
just... just give me a night of escape
let me be free for a little bit
just let me try
please.
please?
i'm begging
i'm pleading
i need something
i can't take this
i need to run