Somethings that look to be amazingly deep are only reflections of your Hope's and not the realities of others lives, I found her love was easy as as a switch to shut off, finding my things at the door. While my love is like the sun it burns and will burnout one day but the burn hurts badly. I'd do it again foolishly, using my heart instead of my head... it crushed me thinking I was better off dead. She still haunts my mind for the time I have left she will always have that part of my heart break.