You tainted my soul, You pretended to be the sleep I needed after years of ******* with insomnia. Loving you made my mouth a ****** warpath. My tongue bled from biting on itself, See, you provided the bullets, You said you kept me at bay, I never knew at bay meant silent, I never knew at bay meant surrender, forgetting, keeping still, not knowing how to breathe, Breathless, Broken, Edged scissors, Slammed fingers, Broken glass bottles, Paper cut stains, Shadow of a corpse, I never knew at bay meant silent.
This war youβve started has no means of ending, This war youβve started, I have not fought through. I start swallowing so many ******* apologies that Iβm sure my stomachβs about to burst, I start forcing the hostility down my throat, Till its sharp brittle edges make my muscles bleed. I start, And I cannot stop. I start, And I do not know how to stop. I start, And I do not want to stop.