A mood can change in the blink of an eye. Your texts stir up like dissolving lies. My hands shake to the beat of my thundering heart. My blood runs cold enough to freeze the pendulum swinging in my head. My stomach wants to be sick, its letting me know my world is upside down. The cold sweat consumes me. Locks me in my head with my whirling thoughts.
When i claw myself out of this madness, i ask who am i? Who am i to be jealous over an unrequited love? They could make you happy, surely, i just want you to be happy?
I do want you to be happy.
This love. This hurt. This friendship. This obsession.
This nothingness is leaving no space left for sanity.