1. i'm allergic to cats, and that doesn't mean anything to most people but i hope you understand why i included it. 2. i open fortune cookies with you in mind. 3. you are my worst kept secret. my therapist knows everything about you. 4. every inch of me, all that i am, secretes and exudes "accident." but you. you were so intentional to me. 5. you are a sunrise if i've ever seen one 6. i want to make you jealous. i want you to see my heart and wish it yours. 7. you make up every song i love, every poem i write, every picture i take and every reason i sleep at night. 8. i love the pauses you take between your words. i love that you know the weight of the poison that is human interaction. 9. i'm so sorry you ever had to learn the weight of the poison that is human interaction. 10. the mere idea of letting you see into my soul is petrifying and if you ever read this poem, please understand the strength and stupid it took me to let you. 11. i wish so badly to just lay shoulder by shoulder with you and wonder why the universe let me know you. 12. i hope you never understand the feeling of missing someone who just doesn't miss you. 13. i miss you. 14. it has been thirty days and i am doing better all the time. 15. but i still miss you. 16. but i have me, and for that, i am glad.