days have past but the scar of the past keeps growling of pain tomorrow tells me another hope by thy sacrifice is made by illusions of good days have already vanished and the worse is yet to come the beast inside of me shelters the weakness of my fear tell me how? how does a girl fight a demon of depression when all she has are swords to inflict self-harm how does a girl forget anxiety when everything triggers the memories i shall keep you away dear lover who have made me vulnerable and forced me to build walls made by blood i do not want to be heartless but he took it away, he took it all the way leaving me with nothing leaving me by a smile i will always despise tell me was it good, to turn my body a volcano then rush out to make it alaska you’ve turned me hot but left me cold you’ve become my foundation but now you’re my destroyer i love to hate you, but that thought is just an imagination all i could feel is the truth that you have been the worse and i have been the ashes