The first time it happened, I locked myself in the bathroom for an hour. I cried, desperately washing away at the blood that was streaming from In between my legs. I cried, desperately trying to put myself back together With concealer for the bruises And pantyliners for the blood.
The second time it happened, I picked roses from the garden And cried at the altar of Christ. It was at this time that I knew there must be no god, As no deity that claims everlasting love Would allow for the heartache You put me through.
I didn’t understand what had happened to me. I didn’t know what my body was responding to. I couldn't apprehend why I was leaving scars on my skin And changing every aspect of my appearance to Make my body my own. I didn’t understand how you could do this to me, To someone who did everything to protect you.