I just want to cry & let all my feelings out, but I think if I start crying I won't be able to stop.
Times are rough, & I know they'll get better eventually, but when would that be ?
Sometimes I just want to leave this place, but I don't want to leave no one behind.
I'm lost & confused most of the time.
This weight I carry, I can't take no more, It's too heavy & it keeps going up & down.
I need to escape, but where would I go ? Would I come back ?
I don't know how to feel towards anyone or anything.
I want to go back to my childhood but yet I never had one.
No one can hurt me no more, I just move on.
Sometimes I don't even have feelings & that scares me.
I'm scared of getting attached to people because I know they'll leave no matter our history.
I want to be myself, but I'm scared to.
I work on myself but I always end up where I started.
Some people tell me I'm strong, but they don't see the behind the scenes.
I feel bad for myself too much & I hate it, but there's nothing else to do but cry about it.
I have scars from the pain & they're visible.
I always end up spilling my heart out to the wrong people.
But I want to tell "EVERYTHING" to that one person, & see if they'll stay after.
I want to cry my eyes, heart, mind & soul out so I won't have to cry or hurt no more.