When your chest is weighing you down, shrinking you into fetal position, then it's hard to miss being able to breath lighlty because every inch of you are trying to resist getting stuck on the ground
every inch of you are trying to fight those ghosts in your head that the demanding och oppressing world around you summoned, called upon, without bothering telling how you would get rid of them without even caring if you did as long as they didn't have to carry it all by themselves
and how could you ever have kept track on yourself when so many have pushed themselves upon you, plunged into your heart, forcing them into your hopefull mind, breaking down the childish, open mind that had survived so far but not this. Not this.
And the weight and darkness of everyone else seeking shelter in your loving soul took over leaving no space for you so how could your clear breath had survived? How could anyones air not get polluted and trapped? And how could you even miss the lightness of your breath once you started to believe it was only a myth because you hadn't felt it in so long, you had just felt everyone else's writched breath
But through all this you found that the ground wasn't quicksand and yes, maybe your innocence never will fully recover but you will find the ability to blindly believe again to throw yourself out there, trusting the leap of yourself trusting that everything will be solved because hey, against all odds, you just made it through.