I love the number 2 because 2 people means no remainder. bus seats, store sales, coffee deals, are made for two. 3? Well, it's uneven. and 1 will always have the anxiety of feeling alone and forgotten. the burden of carrying a forced smile and sometimes faking a laugh to things you dont understand because you'd think that if you do you would feel less left behind. but when it fails and a laugh seems too rehearsed, the three seconds of silence before they turn to one another makes you think that they know and dont care. makes you think you're an extra piece without a spot in the puzzle. it's wasnt always like this. I used to think that nothing could be complete if it wasn't us three. but lately when I'm with you two a part of me wanders off to think about what you're thinking; if I should memorize the words to that song you're both always singing; and what I can change about myself so that you won't leave me. And then, the three of us together becomes two and a half.
"love and fear they're not so different. the things we love the most are also what we're most afraid to lose"