"When was the last time you felt happy?"
Well that's an unfairly complex question.
You see, happiness comes in two phases:
There's certain happiness and there's deceptive happiness.
I only know one, and that's where the problem lies.
Deceptive happiness is when you try with your utmost ability to smile, to laugh, to be happy because you genuinely want to, but the issue?
You've forgotten how.
You're forging complex scenarios, creating ideal circumstances, but you still feel sad.
So you smile, you laugh anyways because people do not understand what it feels like to never feel that way.
Do not tell me I'm depressed.
I'm lonely and heartbroken, and that is far worse.
So, do you see why I cannot answer that?
I can't because I haven't felt that way in a long time.
But you don't understand, you can't understand.
"I'm happy now."