Too much, too fast. Breathless at a stoplight. change fast must go I HAVE NO TIME everything/everything/today/tomorrow Always with the rushing, barely feeling, barely knowing where I am.
Now there's nothing.
It's a break, slow and stale. What do I do? There are four or five things maybe but none feel right and I can't bring myself to move. I try one thing, then another. No drive, meaning, purpose, feeling. Not even my eyes can focus on anything. Skipping, blinking, nothing. Slow.
Give me back the whirlwind, or give me gravelike nothing. Nothing is right. I need power to feel and peace to fight or I am already dead. Please. I'm trusting You. Please.
Thanks so much for reading, it means a lot.
Honestly, I'm not feeling much better for the moment. Things were getting a bit slow this afternoon and the Gravelike paragraph applied for like two hours, but I pulled myself out of it and I'm okay now. Let's see how long the feeling of well being lasts this time...