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Justine
Poems
Aug 2018
***** Word
I don't know why I think about,
The dirtiest word I know,
My eyes start to swell up,
It starts to eat at my soul.
Why does it come across me
Why do I feel this way
Why was I born different
Why couldn't I just be the same
The dirtiest word I know
Is one that was almost met
With a bottle of pills
That I cant say I regret
A little girl back then
Not nearly the same
Wasn't able to admit
This would be a lifelong fear
Or a threat- I guess that's right
It taunts
and haunts
Sometimes wont leave me alone
This *****, ***** word
Is really starting to take hold
It happens when I'm happy
It happens when I'm sad
I guess the words are manic,
anxious and depressed
It sounds much better simply said
Then the real words they represent
I skipped my medication
I skipped my only step
I could blame it on some other thing
But I'm the one at fault
I lose control of everything
Of the world that I try to control
Will there ever be a cure for the way that I feel
Or will suicide finally take hold
It gets worse the older I get
I fear it will only grow
I hate how this feels
I hate who this makes me
I just want to feel normal again
#bipolar
#anxiety
#depression
#sad
#suicide
#adult
#language
#content
#*****
#word
Written by
Justine
33/F/Pacific Northwest
(33/F/Pacific Northwest)
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