Jun 2018
anticipation building, it’s like the drugs aren’t even here yet and i can ******* smell them
yes i’m manic, and no i’m not making the best choices but he’s cutting up the lines and he looks so hot while doing it
the last thing i need is something up my nose, but sure enough the straw is hand and i’m walking over to the dresser now
my dear **** i forgot how bad it hurts
not sure if it’s blood or snot running from my right nostril, but my eye has begun to pour
it’s crazy how quick the pain passes and how fast the tweak comes
i haven’t stopped painting for 10 hours
yes i’m manic, and no i’m not making the best choices but he’s cutting up the lines and he looks so hot while doing it
the last thing i need is something up my nose, but sure enough the straw is hand and i’m walking over to the dresser now
my dear **** i forgot how bad it hurts
not sure if it’s blood or snot running from my right nostril, but my eye has begun to pour
it’s crazy how quick the pain passes and how fast the tweak comes
i haven’t stopped painting for 10 hours
i was approximately 2 months clean from all drugs except ****, after spending the previous two months doing ****** everyday, when i made the decision to put **** up my nose. not only that but it was also the day i was supposed to start my new medication, which was a result from getting clean in the first place. i also didn’t research the effects of the interaction between lithium and ****... needless to say i wound up in the hospital almost dying from serotonin syndrome.. and then a few days later put a needle in my arm for the first time, ever.
