i am envious of what you have, but not of who you are
regardless, it withers me
instead of watching your garden grow, even if i find it utterly dull;
perhaps, i should start digging up the earth in my own, neglected plot
and observe what becomes
I often find myself wanting what someone else has, especially if I feel they are "unworthy." I wrote this to express that feeling and attempt to correct + redirect my negative, unhealthy thoughts. Why not give all that energy and attention to my craft and see what grows?