Like a blanket of gold upon my chest
This love that I perceive to be
More of a blessing than a burden
Still weighs deeply on my spirit
Drenching it in pain and doubt

And the more I feel this feeling
The more I realize how hard it is
To hold on to it
Like tiny silver fish
Slipping through the net of my heart

As if a brilliant jewel
She dulls everything else
Sapping all that was fair
And all that I once saw with a smile
Only reminds me of her

Memories and contacts
However trivial
Intertwine themselves
With every silken strand
Of my soul

And though it may sound like torture
A curse wished onto ill-thought persons
It is an addiction that I prefer not to shake
Because when it is all over
I will be stripped of all things attached

And nothing will be left