It's always two minutes to midnight, and we're always in the Garden of Gethsemane. I don't remember when moonlight started to burn like this, but it seems like this is all there is, maybe all there ever was, ever will be. The brain has never felt more like spoiling meat, nor the excoriated soul itself more reassuringly transient, as we dance these slow, sad waltzes with mute, irradiated ghosts beneath the branches of the doveless olive trees. The night is sharp with splinters and iodine and other traumas. Muffled voices, raised in song: listen! they are singing inside the fallout shelters. Ash drifts like apple blossom. Wolf skeletons relearn the ability to howl. Everything we fear is inevitable. Much of it has already happened. And maybe tomorrow won't bring betrayal, crucifixion or torture, just something else, something like agony, I guess.