I wondered why I had so much trouble Breaking out of this heartbreak bubble Let me tell about my story about guys who were my weakness In the heart I treasured but where cold increases There was a boy I saw in the halls He was a year older and he loved basketball I watched his games and he noticed I know he did cause he winked and said he expected me to cheer the loudest But after months of opening doors, carrying bags and sweet nothing being thrown back and forth He says he’s tired and replaces me and I just became ignored There was another boy much older then before He was smart and successful and said the world was to explore I looked up to him and I thought he looked lovingly down to me But to do bigger things he left me screaming at the sea The next one was more of a child He was joyful and promised me love and marriage But he was just kid lacking reality and it was something I could not encourage Because he thought by promising marriage *** was a must I had to say no 10 times before he even budged In the end I had to walk away from the boy with false promises and deaf to the word no The last one was a high school love It was unrequited it was a time I had to be tough He was my classmate I saw him everyday Our relationship wasn’t black and white it was all grey He told me to wait and wait I did Til he fell in love and I didn’t want to admit That he did me wrong so i asked my place He took my hand and brushed my hair out of my face He told me to wait and wait I did 6 years go by 2 boyfriends later I couldn’t quit He was the one until she got pregnant And all he got out of me was judgement These guys created the walls around my heart They didn’t break it beause you can’t break something that’s already broken from the start All it did was stack bricks upon the broken parts Let me tell you about the time it was shattered It wasn’t a specific time it was a long period With fights and screaming it was like a sickness that needed immediately to be treated It broke when I had to beg on my knees for my dad not to leave It broke when I had to chase my 4 year old little sister down the street chasing after our dad who loved to decieve It broke when my mom told me I wasn’t good enough It broke when my mother just watched my aunt slap me multiple times for something that was her fault and letting me wallow in grief It broke when I was told I was a failure right from the start It left me scarred Wanting to hurl It left me Heartbreak girl
I was sad for such a long time because I wondered why I always had the short end of the stick when it came to love