You think I dont care? That has to be a joke,
The smile I wear is a thin threadbare cloak,
Covering the pain dwelling inside,
I thought you of all people would see the hurt I hide.
I am sure my next words will be hard to believe,
A happy ending for us both is what I'm trying to achieve,
I know we were sure that meant us forever,
Now I see to find peace we must sever.
We will never find happiness with pain and doubt
Clouding our hearts, we both must choose a different route,
I tell everyone we know that I am great,
But distance between us I honestly hate.
I break down when finding myself alone,
I swear I feel your absence weigh down each bone,
The tears shed in solitude, if only you knew,
You can't see but that doesn't mean I'm not crying too.
I hold it in until no one is around,
Then sob and scream; throw my fists on the ground,
I collect myself, in public act like nothing is wrong,
Crumbling underneath a surface that is strong.
It is for you I perform a show,
Pretend I am content so you will not know,
How difficult it is for me to tell you goodbye,
How much it hurts when you don't reply.
You can't supply the one thing I need,
You are destined to lie, make my heart bleed.
No matter the strength of love we feel,
For eachother, the way to heal,
Is move forward separately, gracefully part,
Leave past love behind though it cripples my heart.
I laugh so you won't see the agony below,
The best thing for our two lives is for me to let you go.