I...
I dearly miss you
Not because loving you brings me to life
Not because you made me smile a little brighter
Not because I once thought we were meant to be
All these things made me desire your company
But I unspokenly wanted all your attention
If I had asked, would you have accepted?
Or would my greed and insecurities
have driven you away?
You knew my insecurities about
my appearance
my family
my past
You took me as I was
But I never found a common ground with you
Keeping me in the dark about you
Your attention
Your Patience
Your composure
seemed to all be a facade
I wouldn't notice thunderstorm in the background
Of course, I notice
I always wanted you to be truly happy
A happiness that might not involve me
Sadly with a smile, correct myself
Will most definitely won't involve me
if I catch a glimpse
please let me smile and cry
Let me drunkly sing to
Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah