Losing hope, losing faith I think it’s because I hate to wait I hate to wait to be better so I just cower in my own pitiful silence I just let myself get eaten by despondence Get numbed by insecurities Get beaten by realities of the illusion I’m in of how I’m consumed by sin and I don’t know how How to get out now.
People are trying to pull me But it seems that my body my mind, my soul, my entire being no matter how they want to go back to the light go back to His light; they just can’t. They can’t because it is the unity of myself that don’t agree It is within me that they choose to not flee It is within me and the evil the devil inside that puts me in peril.
I’m losing hope and I’m losing my faith I know how to wait It’s just that I don’t know If I’m still waiting For something Some sort of miracle that will save me Bring me to pinnacle and tame me then cleanse me and make me worthy of His love again even if it’s the last thing I’d do before my end.
Lifeless and lost And it’s all because I don’t know what to do My mind is chaotic My heart is confused My spirit sympathetic My soul is chagrined My body all drained. How to redeem myself? Looking at the bible sitting in my shelf All dusty and torn Like my loss, it mourns.
Is it still possible Will I still be able to just come back even if I lack the passion and the fire that once ignited my love and the music of the lyre of my heart and my faith or will I just be a wraith to a stranger soon like a silhouette on the moon waiting for my end to where I’ll be sent accepting my fate without any hate just ready to take my flight and end me being lost in the light.