It wasn’t supposed to be like this You were supposed to be with me Not him Not my best friend How can I get mad at that? How can I try and drive a wedge between that? I can’t I can’t ruin your happiness for my own selfish desires I can’t tell you how I really feel, because it isn’t mutual Is it. Is it? No, I know it isn’t And now you send me heartfelt messages, about friendship Well if that’s all I’m going to be Then that’s what I will be I don’t deserve your beauty I don’t deserve your grace I don’t deserve your laugh I don’t deserve the burden of your pain I don’t deserve you I have tried Lord knows I’ve tried to get over you I’ve spent days, weeks, months hating you Or at least trying Now I’m sitting with alcohol in my blood and tears in my eyes Staring at the picture you gave me before I left Now, more than ever I miss you I want you