"I'm sure you heard the news"
my hearts now beating a mile a minute
brain firing off all the possibilities.
an accident, a death, a breakup, or worse
"he's engaged"
- s i l e n c e-
my brain relaxes, my heart slows down
a breath of air pumps through my lungs
"Good, I'm happy! He deserves the one"
"Do you really mean that? I mean he really messed you up"
"Hey, I'm okay. It's no longer my burden to bear
I am a new person, that chapter has closed."

Deep down I feel the angst churning
I never got my closure
How could he have moved on so fast
I want to scream "INFIDELITY!"
just loud enough so she can hear
Would she believe me?
Does it even matter?
I hope she doesn't know. I hope their love is genuine
if she knew the monster she was marrying, I don't think she could live.
I was her, waiting for the ring.

I want it to end
The pain surfaces every now and then
but thank goodness for this bottle
it's become my only friend