sweating
im suddenly awake and it's 2 am
thanks to the dream that i was hanging off the edge of my old high school
all of my friends were standing over me, laughing
silly me for thinking i had someone in this world who cared
they mocked and gawked at me
as my shell dangled off the top floor
i felt my brittle fingers try to hold on
and i watched as my best friend pealed them off one by one
sending me into a plunge to the concrete where i had tied my shoes and waved goodbye a thousand times
why is there no one there to catch me?
im shaking and sweating
im awake and alive
but my mind has gone "splat!" against the grainy concrete
im unsure if it was just a dream