fire and brimstone and a grotesque attempt at spontaneous combustion, words crawling out of throats and hands, trembling and body, trembling, all over and sheer force of memory splitting through rationality until a bomb deteroriates everything we used to love, including myself.
i'm not sure what this is, really, but it's here and i am here and i am alive and everything is going to be okay even if he makes me want to cry a little or a lot.