1. You were my favorite
emphasis on the word “were”
meaning no longer
Almost
Another almost
in the place where you should be
You are still my favorite
2. Past tense words are so sad
Had
Loved
The moment when is turns to was
I was loved
I am sad
3. Almost
You can never turn an almost into certainty
when you stopped kissing me in even numbers
When 30 minute goodbyes turned into 3 minutes
Please just touch me one last time
4. There were only a few things in this life I knew for sure
I am terrible at speeches
We were dying
There are no decisions I completely made up my mind about
except you
5. Don’t go
Look at me
I’m opening the door
say something
goodbye
6. When will you be finished fucking her
Because I miss your ceiling
and touching you and the way you looked next to me in bed
I will use her face to replace yours
7. You didn’t leave bruises in bed
but it did not stop you from hurting me
You broke me inside
Compartmentalize the underlined
_You hit me in the car one day when I called myself ugly_
_Our friend was in the back seat_
_She didn’t say anything_
_You said sorry and that you loved me_
_You were just frustrated_
Its okay
_No. its not._
I promise it was nothing
_Yes it was something_
It wasn’t even that bad. It only happened once
_It doesn’t matter_
8. I hate that I still love you
you left boxes behind when you moved out
I will hide them in the closet
neatly packed away
to forget until another day