It is 2:11 on a Saturday morning
And when you don’t reply to my texts
I know it is because he is kissing you right now
And your whole body feels like it is on fire

2:13
I am staring at the flowers you gave me
And you’re probably staring at his face over you right now
No.
Do not think that was special
Just a “friendly” gesture
As if friends show up at each other’s houses at 10 o’clock at night with bouquets of flowers
for no reason
As if friends hold hands laying in the back of your car listening to love songs on the radio
As if friends held each other like we did
No.
Do not think it was special

2:17
He is making you smile
Kissing your neck
Leaving more evidence of the presence of his lips on your body
I will see them tomorrow
And I will try not to notice
Try to pretend like it isn’t killing me

2:19
I wonder if he’ll tell you you’re beautiful
Because there’s not a minute that goes by
When that thought doesn’t cross my mind

2:21
You are in his bed right now

2:22
Your clothes are on the floor

2:23
I wonder if you ever wish it was me

2:24
I will ask you about your night in the morning
And I will smile through it
Act like the words don’t wound me like knives falling from your perfect lips

2:25
They are sleeping in the same bed
I remember what it was like to fall asleep next to you

2:26
I wonder if he appreciates it as much as I did

2:27
Your hands gently rubbed up and down my back
And I could have sworn you were shaking

2:28
Be comforted by the thought that maybe he makes her happy
Do not think of the flowers
DO NOT THINK OF THE FLOWERS
Think of ceilings or box fans
Anything that will get the jealousy off your tongue

2:29
Go to bed
Do not think this was special