My foot has landed on an unknown pebble of information; it rolls underfoot and I tilt back with a blinding blast of panic. Up is down and down is horizontal as I tumble down the s -- t -- a -- i -- r -- s -- I've been so p a i n s t a k i n g l y climbing. I land in a knot of shock and grief a mere couple of steps from the very bottom, the very beginning. Familiar hurt, confusion, and anger twist and turn around me in a smothering weave that settles over my senses.
I wish I didn't know this unwelcome cloak.
I wish I didn't have to know how to remove it, inch by inch.
I wish I didn't have to move past midnight talks and midday laughs and frequent promises to be "BFFs".
I wish I didn't have to let you go.
More on my lost best friend. Poetry has sort of become my coping mechanism/therapy for this. Hope y'all don't mind.