when you tell me how bad i am,
i start to shake.
i'm nauseous and i have goosebumps.
i didn't try hard enough for you and now you don't want to waste your time.
i need a cigarette.
i don't expect you to accept my apologies.
i didn't change before so why would i change now?
because you're threatening to leave?
because you're making me guilty?
why won't you listen to me?
i told you why i'm having a hard time.
my head doesn't want us to be happy.
my head is convinced that you're ******* with me.
my head is terrified.
the world is making this so difficult.
i'm going to *****. please give me another chance. don't leave yet.