you asked me who would care if you killed yourself.
you think that nobody would except for me and maybe your family.
okay.
but if you did **** yourself, i would be very angry with you.
i would tear your note for me to shreds, because i know that if you wrote me one, it'd be decorated with doodles and calligraphy and the very essence of the sunshine that was your smile.
i would not deliver a eulogy. if i did, it'd include phrases like "she tried" and "i don't know what to tell you, the universe ripped us apart again" and i don't think your family would like that very much.
i would not help write an obituary.
i would not do anything but sit there, disappointed that the clouds in the sky and the stars and all the magic spells never stepped in to do anything,
that all your hard work didn't work.
that the chemicals in your brain ran muddy.
and honestly, i would leave.
i would leave to a country with minty skies and forested floors trying to discover something as beautiful and unique as you are.
i would never find it.
all the heat of the sun couldn't melt away the rigidity of my expression
and even pouring rain cannot regrow a lost soul from the soil.
and all the people who thought it was tragically romantic can have a taste of my fist.
~you deserve to be described with beauty. the concept of suicide doesn't.