how could all these masters of art and vision of poetry and of prose of love and of passion of life and of death create so seamlessly, create things that matter to others? how could they have ideas streaming from their minds, and translated into beautiful things that need not ask to be noticed? i'd like to think it was because they worked with heart but why is it that even if my heart is screams with all the things i want to share i try to paint i try to sketch to write to sing little songs they never come out quite right or matter to anyone else? why is it that my heart with all its storms and whirlwinds never seems to be enough to create something beautiful?