i threw them away
even though they
were supposed
to help
because i wanted to be
lovely
and they were stopping
me
from
aching
and they made me sick
and
yes
i act like a child
but children
see more than you
think
and
i started
far too late
and
i fell
into the
stormclouds
and
i haven't slept
and
i got myself
a gym
membership
and
i am a
sick
fat
liar
except that
i really am not
unless i have
to be
and
it's raining
and the sky
is getting darker
and darker
but it's almost
10 am
and
i
am
so
alone