it smelt of cough syrup and cinnamon when it came to visit in the dark hours that followed the chime of the grandfather clock the scent lingered on every article of clothing he once had his fingers on and crept under her nose as she lay there on her side eyes open, hands steady and she swore that she could almost feel it under her skin when she outstretched her arms like a bird the scent turned into a feeling that stayed for 47 days each morning morphing into a night, each night a new beginning each beginning signaling for her arrest held captive by the four walls that housed the scent and every day she was reminded there was no cure for fixing the void except finding another to take by the hand and using him dry until he could no longer be pushed around each new one entering in, another chance to touch the contents in the room one more opportunity to leave memories and association with each item they picked up and when they left, she stayed in her same spot surrounded by memories and names and faces and associations that smelt all to similar to cough syrup and she was knocked out.