the first boy i ever loved had a freckle under his eye and i swore i'd never forget how that looked and now, i have forgotten which eye it was under and what color they were
but this, this is not a sad realization this is not justification this is an explanation of a simple thing: i was not in love but for the life of me, i could've been
and for reasons that i can't quite explain we drifted apart and truthfully, this may have been because he called me names i cannot repeat and he broke me in ways that i'll never be able to fix as ****** as it is, i stayed for a while longer even though i knew i shouldn't because god, i thought i was in love i swore i'd never forget that
but i did and i have and sometimes these "goods" and "bads" come to pass and all that's left is a fading memory a fleeting feeling not of love, but of longing to be in love again
and this freckle under his eye, well i haven't seen it in seven months and i don't really care to because i've seen other beautiful things things that would make that freckle seem ugly things that would make that freckle seem insignificant things that i swear i will never forget
and this, i know is not forever i am not in love with the world yet but for the life of me, i could be