'I don't think you're capable of loving anyone', he said hands on steering wheel twinkling eyes on the road
breath in. breath out. suddenly i forgot how to breath pang on my chest 'but i love you' - i wanted to scream so bad.
but how could i say it when i had never done that how could i say it when i had never learned to say it how could i say it when i had never loved anyone before you show me teach me how please wait a little bit longer as i learn how to love for there was no one else before you
i desperately wanted to say so. yet i let a little pained laugh. 'of course I am', I answered. 'tell me at least one person that you love other than your family'. i could sense it your hope dangling you had been patiently waiting for me to say it out loud yet still how to say it? how say it, please. now please
i feel your disappointment within those silence. and i'm sorry. for i could not say it out loud. but i loved you. and i still do.
*yet you're gone before i could even learn to say it. and now you left me screaming it to the world out loud alone