it gnaws on my brain rabidly, with its razor-like teeth
what is it? i don't know
all i know is that it makes my breath catch in my throat as if it's being held there by taloned claws, my heart beating as though it's being used as a drum
and this...this thing haunts my dreams
it causes nightmares of losing everyone i love
it also takes my will to live and smashes it between its palms, so that my mind is whirling
but is void of the ability or motivation to take action
what is this creature? how can i defeat it? surely this is not a part of me
but it seems like no matter how much ice i press to my skin no matter how much control i have no matter what medication i'm on,