went to the house last night well this morning 4 am strangeΒ Β houses so full of memories emotions simple things tiny moments split seconds no one remembers gripping this steering wheel clenching my fingers attempting to map the blueprint in shadows trying to look in black windows old wounds and burns festering once more lump in my throat tears of happy thoughts cheery reminiscences distance is present desiring past habits and quirks sunday dinners countless conversations with billows of smoke running from our lips papa and momma bear remain on the hill but kids like to run free all different directions locations away from the white house aftermath odd change in the air heavier almost ominous but familiar welcoming but not home