let me start off by apologizing to you for introducing myself as the person you'll get to know to love. for being the person you would've walked in front of a bus for.

5/27/16 3:28AM
I thought that the ones who left before you had burned me to a crisp, but your absence completely burned my whole body and all I am is ashes. I loved you with every piece of me and all I can do now is think about how you're dealing with your losses and if you're alright. sometimes when I'm lonely, I smother my face in your clothes because every stitch has a memory of you intertwined in it.

5/28/16 12:58PM
last night I tried to drink myself to death because I missed you too much. I told our friends that I was sorry and that I needed to do it. I locked myself in the bathroom and I drank and drank until I woke up in a pool of my own bile. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I love you.

6/17/16 1:52AM
I don't know why, but I really miss you tonight. I still love you, regardless of what you say to me. this is either gonna turn out incredible and astounding or absolutely devastating. I'm ready for either.

6/28/16 3:25PM
it's been two years since my best friend died and you told me that you were here for me, even if it didn't seem like it. I remembered the night when I went home and you called me to make sure I was alright. when I said no, you stayed on the phone with me as I cried and laughed. I didn't even think I was capable of laughing that night. I miss how things were. I still love you always.

7/7/16 12:48AM
you told every ******* person at that bonfire that i'm in love with you still. I took my clothes back and we argued in the car. it had never happened until that night. you threw my clothes in my face while you walked away crying and i'll never forgive myself for not going after you and apologizing. you ****** me over but I still love you.

7/15/16 6:36PM
I'm home now and I'm clean. now that I can see what you did to me, and by writing this out, I realize that you never deserved my love. I deserve better. I deserve someone who gives me as much as I give them. I wanted the world for you, and I still do, but I'm not gonna be there when it starts on fire.

7/20/16 12:08AM
I burned your sweatshirt and deleted everything of us off my phone. I deleted your number. I deleted you. I don't love you anymore.