I was once shy I always asked myself why? "Be different" I whispered to my nine year old self I recalled that at the time I hated myself
And so I bloomed into this wildflower I became spontaneous, daring, unique, strange, intelligent yet naive And so the problems started
You see I wanted to be different But I didn't know the cost I didn't know the cost until I became seventeen You might think it was just the phase of a teen
But NO As I layed in the ground watching everything pass by I died on the inside I became consumed to the point of hide
"Be different" "Be accepted" "Be skinny" whispered the nine year old I tried and I'm sorry for wanting that mold "I'm sorry" I whisper to my seventeen year old self because the agony was not worth it
I thought drugs and alcohol was lit I thought boys and women were **** I thought comments were superficial I thought social media made me official
Dear nine year old, bullying made you weary Tears made you strong Thoughts killed you And comments surrounded you but that is gone That is past Who are we to judge others? GOD? Who are we to comment? GOD? Who are we to feel? Us.