back when summertime sadness was hip. beating hearts felt like butterflies trapped in a plastic water bottle trying their hardest to get out and bodies of water that were frighteningly black but as clear as broken glass and worn down cowboy boots and perfectly fragmented scarlet and burnt orange canyons and crushed beer cans by the firepit and isolation and inescapable infatuation. the world was so beautiful and almost ethereal but it wasn't familiar. like it had been taken apart and put back together differently than before.