Today everything isn't quite so beautiful
The sun is shining
and there's a soft breeze flowing through a beautiful white tapestry with gold embossed threads..
I hung in my window
the birds sweetly woke me from my sleep
I was able to meditate for a little while and decrease some of my pain
and sickness
I still don't know where it's coming from

Then I hear the demanding of others
People asking me to help them when I'm the one who needs it
I asked them to call me...
I beg
I implore
still no answer

then I hear a dog barking
It just won't stop
I hear a child crying
and a mother yelling
cursing
she closes the window so I hear faded pieces of
her bellowing voice
the child's cries....
demanding apologies for things the child doesn't understand
and his heart that she cannot

consequences she's in enforcing consequences...
someone is snapping twigs
trees are falling
feels like it's her breaking a switch on him
I guess he's not having a slumber party after all
Now the child is just sitting on the stoop forced to be quiet with tears rolling down his cheeks
he still beautiful to me
I wish I could whisk him up
Take him to a happy place
See a smile upon his lonely...
saddened face

Everything isn't always so beautiful
I guess it just helps me to appreciate what I have all the more.....
And hope
and pray
have faith
that tomorrow will be a little bit better for all of us.

Cherie Nolan © 2016