I saw a ship when you passed
It made me wonder so much
About what we meant
Was your ghost with me
During or after it all?

In the light of day
I find myself gazing
At what-once-was
And at night I cry
A howl of pain and misery

It wasn't your fault, my love
I knew better than to wish it away
When the weight is dropped
I am stuck with memories
Of your living nightmares
Oh my god, I ******* it all up
It was lost and now is found
I want to slip away from this
I can't live with reminder notes
At the nightstand of my lonely bed

I'm forever filled with a hole inside
A misery-soaked life, slowly but surely
Dead.