If my friends knew of the pain inside and the technique I created for my scars to show up perfectly aligned I do not believe they would remain my friends much longer.
If my friends knew how I cry at night and try to choke myself with my own dark hair and finally, lay broken and sobbing in the midnight air I would not blame he or she if they stopped being friends with me.
If my friends knew how I turned to *** to numb the pain or jumped out the window to feel again I wouldn't blame my friends for saying Im insane.
Lastly and surely, if my friends knew how many times I have bled or burned or weeped or screamed or tore away my lover's clothes to distract my brain from burning eyes my friends might figure out my disguise.