It's the eve before Christmas, the best eve of the year. But I can't help but cry, and shed a tear. Why you might ask, would I be crying on Christmas? Probably because everything is so different. I don't feel excitement, or happiness in the least. It seems like any other day, but with a holiday feast. I wish I could go back to when I was seven, Where Christmas was basically one day of heaven. But those days are gone, as well as the rest of them, and now I am laying like baby Jesus in Bethlehem, wishing that I could be happy again, hoping that someday I will feel the same.