I stare at the mirror and spew profanities at myself It is utterly unbelievable that I am in such a state Resisting the urge to grab the nearest pen and paper And let the ebony ink stain the alabaster surface
Hundreds of days have passed since I've sworn to the skies I've sworn to the skies that I will never again write I've sworn that I will never again waste words on you I will never again waste any sort of figure of speech on you
But sharp nails are piercing through my palms The only relief for the exacerbating pain Is making your name bleed through a pen's tip ******* it
I abhor how feeble I am against it I abhor how feeble I am when it comes to you I paraded the streets with such a cocky, domineering gait But after all this time, I remain a slave of the past
I was a slave willing to sink on my knees for you I still remain a slave, but now a slave with a mind A slave who knows what's the best for himself A slave embracing the freedom but glancing back at the binding shackles
I curse at myself in front of the mirror Because after all this time, you can still put me in a trance Your eyes still looked the same, breathtaking And the beauty of your smile still captivates me
I slam my fist on the mirror as I curse myself And curse myself yet again for cursing you but struggling Struggling as I painstakingly swallow words of love Words of love that I had for you, that I still have for you
Yet again I slam my fist against the broken mirror It's a self-reminder about the fate of my heart in your hands You have delicate hands with a penchant for destruction It's the perfect time for you to meet your match How I wish your heart ends up like mine
I wish that your smiles turn into hot tears And that his affectionate words turn into sugary guillotine I wish that his feverish kisses burn your fair skin And I wish his every whisper of promise will dissipate into thin air
But I know that even if your heart breaks Your suffering will not heal my wounds Know that I do not wish for you to return to my arms And as I sink down onto the ground As my bare knees press against the shattered glass I wish for you to hear me: