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Dec 2015
Today like many days now
                                                   for at least
                                                 three hundred & sixty five days
                                         plus some more
                        I've thought about you

    I've thought of
        the many times
               you've made me smile
                  laugh and the few times
                            you've made me cry

                                        Today's an ordinary day
                                        but we've not ever been ordinary
                                more likes extraordinary
                yet I most of the time
didn't have enough in me
to give to you
   I loved you & love you still

                                    See this is my problem
                                                      and­ as I've been told
                                                         most man need to fix something
                                                       ­              No matter if it's emotional
                                                       ­                        mental and or otherwise
                                                       ­                                       You can't fix me
                                                      The support I craved
                                                          ­       you'd give in increments
                                                      ­               but gave none the less
                             Today like many days now
                                     I think about the times
                                                    spent mainly in the car
                                                             ­     how you'd sooth my fears
                                                                ­        or the time we got stuck by  
                                                            ­                          my house
                                                           ­                 but we made the most of it
                                                              ­    as we danced in the rain

                                                 I think of us and what we could of been
                                             if we'd of both let go
                                        just give in
                                yet too much happened
                        to the both of us
                       before we even knew one another
             star-crossed lovers before time met space
        and we drifted together like
a meteor colliding in space
          I often think back
                    on where we'd be
                        if I could of gotten
            myself together
    held my tongue
kept my anger in check
much more

Today like many days now
        for at least three hundred & sixty five days
                                            plus some more
                                                    I've thought about you
                                                            l­ike when we first made love
                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­     I doubt I'll ever forget the shock
                                                           ­                     of finding out you did
                                                             ­                 know enough
                                                          ­                          Your sweet word surely
                                                          ­                       wasn't just
                                                            ­               spoken
                                                          ­          out of lust

                      We made magic and made history
          a part of you & a part of me
     God made these things possible
oh how I think if ONLY

Today like many days now
                        I think of the passion we had
                                                          for one another
                                                         ­         the way you kissed me
                                                      in places that made
                                           my head spin
              sent chills down my spine
   and all over my body

I cried out over & over
              I remember every gentle touch and
                                         for me I'd of liked
                                                       to see you be a bit rough

                                                          ­                   Maybe just maybe
                                                                ­      I should of enjoyed it more
                                                            ­                                   allowed you to
                                                              ­          teach me something new
                                                             ­                              because now a days
                                                                ­                     I think back on it
                                                              ­                  and you knew
                                                            ­         yeah you knew
                                                           all the right things to do
                                     thing's I just wasn't ever used to
                      
                Today like many days now
                   I think of the ways we held each other
                      You more than me
                             have held me through-out
                                  the night
                                      whispering sweet word
                                            as you'd caress me to sleep
                                                       or saving me often from a bad dream
                                                     I  think back and see you in my            
                                            minds-­eye massaging all my pain
                                   and fears away

                                Often times reassuring me you'd never leave
                  I feel cheated out of these thoughts and all the
               beautiful memories we've made
        all the history we had and the many
we would have still
  if only I'd of changed sooner
          or if I'd had given in better
                     If I'd of allowed what you were offering
                                                  things­ would be so different
                                                       ­           I'm glad you're happy
                                                           ­                   content & in love
                                                            ­                     sharing our dream
                                                           ­      with a new lady love
                                                    OH  ­how I wish it was me still
                                      how I used to believe it'd be me again
                         I think on how I've waited jaded for you
         to come home
                 but you never did
                         and wont ever again
                       I'm no longer yours but

                      Today like many
                                      days now
                                                for at least
                                                         three hundred
                                                         ­      & sixty five days
                                                            ­plus some more
                                                                ­ I've thought
                                                                ­         About You
                                                                     Copyright ©
                                                          Ayeshah K.C.L.N 1977-Present  
                                                                     All right reserved
I forgive myself even if YOU never do and I also learned to forgive others, its still a work in progress but I'm heading to a better me and glad I've learned these lesson so the next one if ever i find another wont suffer from my bitter contempt. Thankfully I ain't looking for another just enjoying me!
Ayeshah
Written by
Ayeshah  F/I'M ILLUSIVELY"HERE"
(F/I'M ILLUSIVELY"HERE")   
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   Sumina Thapaliya, --- and ---
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