A discordant gain moves through the hall echoes off every wall and reverberates again through my chest cavity. my ribcage thrumsΒ Β obstinate, hopeful it is a clear fullness it is the water that I carry. The cistern is broken but it has been sealed in gold that reflects the light of things that have been, are, or will be and it is the lightning fracture that appeals to Him now more than the gold itself.
I know your heavy lead-heart, lead-limbed sorrow. I know the iron nails your mind would drive up into your own veins. You crucify yourself not every three days but every day every night every hour. It is the lightning-fracture that reminds you of this place moreso than the gold ever could. The high, dissonant clattering in the world drives into your dryness. I will give you water but to hold it, you must seal your cracks, yourself.
To preach doctrine and theology is one thing, to live it in full acknowledgement of the human spirit, human minds, needs, and human anguish is another thing entirely.